Yeah, I’m still alive, happier than I ever was and less happy than I ever will. And no, I’m not going home for Christmas or New Year’s eve.

First of all, I finished college. The project I was talking about in my last post got a 10 (that’s a B in the American grading system). The product itself was worth 12 (A) but, quite honestly, the examination was pretty cruel and I failed to answer the following questions:

• What is the difference between a normalized and denormalized table in a database? (I should have known the answer to this question but hey.. no regrets, right?)
• How can you store a PHP object inside a session? (I just couldn’t focus on giving an appropriate answer and was way too vague in the answer)
• Why didn’t I use JSON in order to send and receive the AJAX information? (I think the answer “I was just not very familiar with JSON and did not have enough time to go more into depth with it” was not really alright)

So, let’s put it this way: I am now a multimedia designer (literally, not just skillfully) and I’ll be finishing my bachelor in Web Development sometime next Winter. God damn, that seems so far away! Here’s a video I made out of 2 videos shot by one of my classmates and one of my teachers:

Those being sa(i)d, my life really revolves between going to work, watching the last 2 seasons of Seinfeld and any individual projects. Oh, and learning the regular expressions! I always bump into them so I guess now would be a good time to actually learn them!

On the other hand, the last week has been very entertaining from a metallic point of view as I got the chance to watch Soulfly, Master and Six Feet Under in 2 live performances, in Århus. Yeah, they were expensive but one should never refrain from actions which definitely gives him pleasures unless those pleasures are illegal but that’s a completely different aspect…

I’ll be coming home on the 22nd of July and I do not know what to expect. From any point of view. What’s even funnier is that I still haven’t bought a return ticket but I guess I’ll do it as soon as I get home though. Anyway, Scandinavian Airliens for the wins! I am so sick and tired of having a flight made out of 2 segments!

Can it get any worse? Yes it can! Bring it on, you mofo!

So, now that I am confident that you guys understood what life is like (fuck, if that doesn’t help you, just make a comparison between this picture and this other picture), you can read the other bla bla that I am going to post around here like:

• I’ll be in Romania between the 28th of January and the 13th of May, doing my internship at an awesome company (I might try to make a trip for a Hypocrisy concert in either Vienna or Sofia)
• Advanced Photoshop Techniques that you may not be aware of
• Thousands of Photoshop Brush Collections
• Got a 10 at the 3rd semester project exam and I’m waiting for the 3rd semester subject exam (it’s either I get a 2 or a 12, depending on which subject I draw from the hat)
• I miss my girl.
• I’m just waiting for things to go on their usual downward path. I literally know that I am at the peak of the quality of my life so that’s why I ain’t so happy about it. I am usually an optimistic dude but you have to know where you stand and not get over excited.

And to my few readers: I’m sorry for the lack of posts in the recent time. Meh, there’s no particular reason for that: I still care about the 2 of you, it’s just that I realized that this blog doesn’t help me improve my personal life nor my professional life and I assigned it a smaller number in the huge queue of my priority list.

I remember when I was in the 6th grade and one of my classmates had a black and white (actually, black and orange) screened Alcatel 301. We were all playing on it, creating stupid ringtones on its software. And yes, some of us did consider him cool for having a mobile phone! Then I got to high school and everyone had a mobile phone. Come to think about it, when I got in high school, nobody really gave a crap about which mobile phone you had but then again, the iphone was not launched at that point.

Now I got to college and mobile phones are the least of anyone’s worries. Except receiving messages from extremely beautiful girls, my mobile phone is only used as an alarm for waking up in the mornings and evenings. However, the only gadget we can actually compare in class are the laptops and nobody seems to give a crap about them anyway! I mean, I do have this feeling that people owning a Toshiba are noobs but I am trying to change my mind…

I’ll just go back to the teenagers now. I honestly have no idea how they think like and how it is like to be a teenager. 5, 6 or 7 years ago we didn’t have any social media network on our hands (well, maybe MySpace but nobody really used it in Romania). When you liked someone, you were struggling to find out whether or not they have a boyfriend or girlfriend. You were dying to see them the next day at school since you couldn’t see any photos of them on hi5 and it also makes me sad to imagine how teens ask for the messenger id of the people they like.

Therefore, I would like to ask for anyone who has some info about this: how is it like to be a teenager, today? How often do you use the internet to contact your “friends” and how often do you actually interact through some old fashion methods?

I don’t know about you guys, but this is how it goes out for me: I make a mistake, I suffer the consequences, I transfer my point of view from subjective to objective, promise myself that I will take care from that point on, time passes by and I’m back to square one, forgetting about the mistake I had done and I attempt to take another shot at the same action, hoping for a miracle. It never happens though.

Whenever you lose someone you care about forever (as in passing away), you promise yourself that from that day on, you will always show the people you care about just how much you love them. And you do that, for a while. You actually are a better person who shows his affection the way he should have always done. But then… You forget. You forget how it all started, forget to talk the nice way you used to talk, forget to notice all the signs that you should notice and all you are left with are the regrets. Regrets that maybe somehow, someway, you could have done something about it.

I know I have said that life is funny or boring but I love life. I love breathing, eating, drinking, loving and struggling to wake up in the morning to go to school. My love towards life is tending to be on a downward path for the past year though. Don’t receive that sentence as a suicidal one ffs, I’m just saying that being alone is not really something that you should be looking for in this life.

Perceive this any way you want: Value the people you love, cherish the ones that love you and don’t miss any day of your life cause.. well, you know.. life’s too short to spend it alone.

Note: no, noone died, I didn’t lose anyone, no break-up, no fights with friends or anything what-so-ever. Just midnight thoughts.

And since you all know that I am adorable and are probably interested in my daily activity ( who wouldn’t be? ), you can follow me on twitter!